It's hard to lose someone you love. Whether through a break-up, a move, or a death. Kyle and I lost our baby this week twelve weeks into our pregnancy. It's been a very difficult experience for both of us. I really don't understand why things like this happen. I know that we are definitely not the only people that something like this has happened to. So many friends and family have poured out love on us and shared their stories of loss. There are many stories of tragedy and heartache.
I told Kyle that I feel like it would be wrong if I looked at this situation just by how it effects me. I know without a doubt that God can use something like this to make His name great. As much as I want to be pregnant, and as much as I miss our baby, I know that God can use this for His glory. If how Kyle and I handle this shows friends of ours how great our God is, then it is worth it. Even if we never see how God uses this to show His glory, I trust that He is in control and that His plan is better than my own.
Kyle and I will grieve. We will struggle and cry and pray our way through this. We do know that we have happy days ahead. Whether that's through another pregnancy or a different plan, we don't know. I know that God is good. I know I can trust Him. He has proven Himself over and over in my life and in my husband's life. I know who God is, and I know who He will always be. He is faithful. He is infinite. He is love. God will provide healing and peace in our lives, and someday we'll be able to use this to minister to others.
