Wednesday, January 23, 2008

winter

I cannot stand cold weather, especially when it comes to car rider duty at school. It has been absolutely frigid the past couple of days. And yesterday I forgot a hat, scarf and gloves, so that didn't help at all.

Even though I don't like cold weather, I absolutely love winter food. Chicken and dumplings, chili, any type of soup. All of that makes me happy. There is nothing like a good bowl of soup in front of a fire. It truly is little things that bring joy during busy lives. I need to remember to be thankful for the little things.

Kyle and I are up to verse seven in Psalm 34. It's funny when God actually brings scripture to mind that you have memorized. (I don't know why I am always surprised by that. Of course, Jessica, that's one of the ways the Holy Spirit works.) I've used those verses at several different points this week. In particular, I've used verse 4, "I sought the Lord and he answered me. He delivered me from all my fears." I've had some fears lately, but I have confidence that God will deliver me from those fears as long as I'm seeking him.

God is good. God loves me. God loves you. God is going to deliver you from all your fears.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

money

I wish money was not a source of stress for me. I wish Kyle and I had more money to give away. It's hard to know the difference between giving to the point of faith and being foolish.

But, God is the provider. He's the source of our income. He is the one that tells us how to budget our money. I've got to trust God to show us how to divide the money. That's an issue of trust. It's a learning process. I'm glad that God's a good teacher.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Fun, fun, fun

We have a dog, Moses, who we just got on the first of December. We have another dog, Timber, who is four and a half. We were worried that Timber might not be accepting of Moses. But it has brought so much joy to our lives to have both of these dogs around. We laugh at them all the time.

My parents bought Moses for us in Canton. When we were getting in the car to take him home we discovered that he was born the same day we had the miscarriage. I'm not really superstitious (I'm just a little stitious, for all you fans of "The Office"). I just think that we needed joy, and it was a reminder that God provides joy in the midst of difficulty and sadness.

I think that Kyle and I need to post a video of Moses chasing Timber around the house. It's hilarious. Maybe it would bring a little bit of joy to someone else.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Being Healthy

Last night when Kyle was saying our blessing over our food, he prayed that God would help us be more healthy, physically and spiritually. That spiritual part surprised me, but it shouldn't have.

Every new year most people make New Year's resolutions. I don't know the exact statistics, but I'm sure an abundance of people decide that this will be the year that they start working out or lose weight. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that's a bad thing. That's a great thing. I'm trying to get back on track myself. But in the midst of trying to eat better and work out more, I sometimes forget that my spiritual health is just as important.

On New Year's Eve Kyle and I played cards with my parents. He asked everyone if they had any goals for 2008. I said I wanted to increase my vocabulary (that's such a dorky teachery thing to say). My mom wants to read her Bible more. Kyle said he wanted to memorize more Scripture. Kyle and I actually started that night, but haven't really worked on it together since. We decided to start with Psalm 34. Our verse that we chose as the purpose for our marriage is Psalm 34:3, so we decided the rest of the chapter might be a great place to start.

It honestly frustrates me that I'm not good at focusing my attention on many things. I want to be a great wife, I want to eat healthy, I want to exercise, I want to be a great teacher, and so many more things. It's like I have life focus ADD. I think that if I just made it my goal each and every day to glorify God, then my other priorities would take shape.

Even if I was in the best shape of my life and eating right, but I wasn't glorifying God, I wouldn't be a healthy person. This year I do want to be healthy. I want to be an active individual who eats right. But I also want to be someone who is obviously loving God and glorifying Him. That's a true sign of health.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Late Night

I really should be asleep right now. I've got school tomorrow, and I still need to finalize some plans in my head. The last thing I should be doing right now is blogging. But, I'm doing it anyway.

Today as Kyle and I were driving home from church we turned on the air conditioner. We were in my car, and normally the ac turns on immediately with cold air. Today, however, the ac made a funny noise and never completely cooled down. We think that there must be a problem. Now I don't know anything about cars, so it could be something as simple as putting freon in the car, or it could be more complicated. I'm not sure. The thing that I thought was wonderful, though, was that it's January, and we have a problem with the ac in our car. It's a problem that doesn't have to be fixed now. We can budget it in and fix it around March or so. Normally I would be, well, not in a panic, but a little nervous and stressed about how we would pay for a car repair. This time I was able to see that God is taking care of us with this car repair. It could have happened in the middle of the summer, but it happened in winter. So I am thankful that I have an ac problem.

Today at church Keith said that it's a big deal for us to be able to go through dark times and still know that we have a good God. Now our car problem is not a dark time. It's just an inconvenience. But the other things that have happened this year have been dark. But even during the seemingly hopeless points, I knew and I still know that my God is good and that I can trust him. When I have had flashes of pain and hurt and grief, Kyle has reminded me that God is a good God. The song "You Are God Alone" says, "And right now in the good times and bad You are on Your throne. You are God alone." That is true. Today is not a bad time. God is still in control. Three months ago during the miscarriage was a bad time. God was in control. Six months ago in St. John was an incredible time. God was in control. One month ago during the death of two friends was a hard time. God was in control. Who knows what one month, three months, or six months from now will be like. But God is in control. And He is good. And He has always, always been faithful. He has never given me any reason to doubt Him. Even if we go through the death of another friend or a baby, God is still faithful in those times. Even if we have an awesome year full of great things, God is still faithful in those times. In all that happens, He is in control. We live for His glory.