hair

I think I want a haircut. I always say that, but I never actually follow through and get it cut short. But I really think I want to cut it off this time. Except I didn't put it in the budget this month. So it might have to wait until the first of August. I'm pretty sure it's coming off though.

pb

So, I should no longer buy peanut butter. I LOVE peanut butter. I can eat spoonful after spoonful and not think twice, except an hour later when I'm thinking, "Why did I eat that?" It's just good stuff. And no, I did not eat a whole jar. I just ate about 2 tablespoons. And also half a pb and j. And also three pb crackers. But that's all of the peanut butter that I ate-yesterday.

On another note, I had someone remind me-quite selflessly, I might add-that had it not been for a certain friend, then I never would have met my husband who has brought me so much joy (see previous blog). So, Kelli Burks, thanks for introducing me to Kyle Walker. I don't know how you knew (she told me-honestly-"If you meet him, you'll marry him."), but you obviously saw something that could be, and is, wonderful. Thank you, friend. You changed my life with your friendship but also with your "meddling". =) I love you!

yesterday

Yesterday was my fifth anniversary of being married to a wonderful man. God has truly blessed me with a husband that is compassionate, faithful, humble, kind, loving, intelligent, and good looking. (I'm sure Kyle would be disappointed if I didn't also mention that he is very strong and very fast.) Kyle is incredible. He truly cares about others and wants people to feel important and special. You can so easily see Christ in him. It's obvious that he is seeking God's heart for his life and his ministry. He makes me want to be more like Jesus. I am so proud to be his wife. Kyle is an amazing husband and man. I loved him immensely on our wedding day, but my love for him has deepened so much since then.

So, Kyle Walker, I love you. You are the man that God knew I needed to be with. You bring joy to my life. I am so glad that God has let me participate in ministry with you. I am so thankful that God has let me do life with you. Though life around us has seemed to crumble at times, my relationship with you has been steady. You have been my best friend. You have loved me at times when I'm sure I've been hard to love. I love you so much, Kyle. I can't wait to see what the future holds, known and unknown. I am so blessed to be married to you.

one more thing

My family is going to the beach this week (woo hoo!), and we always play family games. Anyone have any suggestions?

confession

I actually really like Jessica Simpson's new country single "Come On Over." I know, I know, it must be a guilty pleasure. Don't hate me because of my music choices, please. I promise I have more sophisticated taste, too. We'll just say I have rather diverse preferences in music.

That's all.

a few insignificant thoughts

One-Summer school starts for students tomorrow. I'm looking forward to it. I received a phone call on Friday saying that there weren't as many students registered as they had expected, so we were told we might be losing teachers. I was not too nervous about it because I think I would be happy either way. We ended up only losing one teacher on our grade level. Summer school is going to be a little more work than I expected, but I always enjoy a new challenge. I'm looking forward to seeing how much growth we can achieve in such a short amount of time. I love seeing growth that children make in a classroom. It's so incredibly amazing.

Two-Kyle and I watched Nashville Star tonight. We've never watched it before. There was actually a girl on the show that we knew from Pantego Bible Church. She was one of the best contestants, so that was pretty exciting.

Another thing-I can't believe these gas prices!! I'm so glad that we've budgeted for gas for our trips this summer. And I'm so incredibly thankful I drive a Civic. I love my car, but I love it now more than ever. Thirty-eight miles per gallon has never been so good.

Finally-I would love to be in great shape, but I never want to be a female body builder. It just doesn't appeal to me. Thankfully I don't think my husband wants me to look that way either.

sometimes

Sometimes I can't help but think that I'm supposed to have a baby right now. I should have a baby with us when we go out to eat. When my cousin and her husband visit they should be playing with the baby. This vacation we should be taking the baby with us. For some reason it didn't happen, though. We may never know why.

I mentioned this to Kyle today. He said he just tries to suppress those feelings. I've definitely gotten better, but there are some days when I still have these types of thoughts. I think it would be wrong for me to completely forget about it. It would be like the baby never happened or mattered. I do think it's helped my mental clarity to take some time off from "trying." I'm not at the point where I feel like I can completely say I'm content with knowing that we may never have children of our own, but I think I'm getting there.

On another note, we leave for vacation in less than a week!! I'm so excited about spending time with my family. These beach trips are some of my favorite childhood memories, so I'm really excited to add more wonderful family times to my long list of great memories.

That's all for tonight. No incredibly deep thoughts. Just ramblings about my mental status. I'm sure it's just thrilling to read about...